Until yesterday’s CBT session I hadn’t realised just how much of my time is taken up with anxious thoughts. I am still at the evidence gathering stage of CBT and I have to admit I do find it hard writing things down in the mood charts. However, Jan the therapist wants more evidence of my anxious thoughts, so I am obliging. Thus far since yesterday I have written seven lots of anxious thoughts down with all the ususal details that go with it – situations, anxiety levels and predicted fear and outcomes. In these moments of angst I do find Jan’s spoken words ringing in my ears :- ”this will pass” (and they do prove helpful).
I feel absolutely whacked out this week, hormones have really done for me. Next week is incredibly hectic with it being the last week of school term. Every single day next week is taken up with different activities here there and bloody everywhere regarding Lisha’s schooling. It is induction day for all schools in town next Tues, meaning Lisha is at her middle school for the day.Her year will be the final intake of year fives, since Suffolk is in the process of moving from a three tier to a two tier educational system. Dan will be going into his year ten class, but no major changes there. On top of this Lisha has a double hospital appointment at the eye clinic next Wed.I have told her she is likely to be missing the school sports afternoon because of the appointments and she is very happy with this.
Steve has decided he is an Atheist again and I have to say I keep losing track of where he stands. But I am not questioning him, because I don’t really know where I stand with all things spiritual.Personally Christian stuff really doesn’t do me any good , particularly as far as the anxiety/OCD stuff goes. What I have noticed with Steve is that he does get very serious when he is in Christian mode – almost losing his sense of humour, which I don’t like and neither do the kids. So as long as he isn’t paranoid it’s ok whatever he chooses to do.
Mandy Said:
on July 11, 2009 at 7:07 am
Hi Sis
You know I have my own doubts about CBT but I would never try to interefere with other people doing things that they think could help and might actually turn out to have helped.
I believe, such as I have any beliefs, that therapies can help as long as they are tailored to a person’s needs and situations. I found the process of writing down when I was anxious and giving it marks out of 10 only servied to heightene my stress levels. Maybe some people need a pre-CBT course assimilation session. Not for me, I am afraid.
Anyway, is good that the therapist is supportive because ,after all, these therapies are about people aren’t they? So the relationships with therapists..trust that gets built up is Key.
Good luck with all the goings on next week. Is your camping holiday in the near future? If so, that should be a welcomed break for all.
You know what you wrote about Steve? Well, as I was reading that the Eurythmics song came into my head. The line that goes “Everybodies’ looking for something”. Perhaps that something is something bigger and better than ‘us’…humans. I don’t know. Just thinking off top of my head.
I have given up looking for that something bigger…and realised it really is down to us and that is scary indeed because as a species we’ve seriously screwed up and to date, haven’t resolved much of anything.
serotonin66 Said:
on July 11, 2009 at 8:49 pm
Hi Mandy
We are camping the last week of Aug – five nights of mayhem !! Nah can’t wait.I’d rather it was sooner to be honest, but then again lots of things to do.Need to get car serviced before we go, but we are going to apply for a credit card to pay for it.I hate credit cards, but is needed for car things and emergencies.
Anyway I feel a post coming on !